If I were to die tomorrow

If you were to die tomorrow, will you be ready to face God?

What would the Lord say to you

after all these years you have lived

Will His mercies and grace

be able to cover all my sins

Is it truly by His grace alone

that I'm wholly atoned for

Can His precious blood on the cross

be all it takes to wash away all my guilt and shame

I wish for a better tomorrow

but I dwell in darkness and loomed at my failures

I hoped for something better

but everyday new hurts came

He say that I alone suffice

that He should be my all in all

yet the sin in my heart looms greater

and I cannot put it to death

not by my strength He says

but by His power and Spirit

so I prayed and fasted

and ask for His strength

I seek Him, yet things still fail along the way

The miseries doesn't seem to end

not when this sin is still within me

not when I am still striving by my own strength

and not trusting and depending on Him alone

This I have failed, this I reckoned is the cause of my own demise

that I have not been fully surrendering

but still clinging on the worthless I have

I thought I can pull it through

but the waves kept coming

Is this how You correct me

by letting me face endless troubles

I find no satisfaction in my life

I wish I can die tomorrow

It will be no different

Nothing will change

But how am I to face you?

How can I have the salvation I seek?

My life is not finished

He still sustains me

Everyday I wake, I can try again

Help me O Lord in this

For all is vanity without you

Nothing is worthwhile, without you

Please be my light

Please be my Guide

Help me shine the way through this darkness

and lead me into your Presence

where there is Joy and Peace forever more

amen.